Some overdue news
- I'm going to Germany November 5 to 13. I'm looking forward to returning to a gray and nasty November in Germany, one that has caused me much annoyance and depression during my teens.
- The boy and I are going to Utah for Christmas. We chose Utah because Utah is pretty.
- Remember the psychic awareness classes I have been taking? The teacher, Robin, moved to LA recently and has asked me to take over the class. So for three weeks now I have been no longer just a psychic student but also a psychic teacher. So far it's going pretty well.
- The boy and I have been spending a lot of time at my place. Before I moved, we used to hang out at his place mostly but that has changed now. Add some bright yellow walls and take away the risk of running into roommates in your underwear, and you have a pretty great space for spending some quality time together. Also, I got a love seat for my new place and it's the perfect spot for reading. I heart that thing.
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.: posted by Vera 
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In the cafeteria at work
Old friend [waves]:
Me: Did you come here for the salad?
Old friend: No, I came here for a lap dance actually.
Me [giggles]:
Old friend [walks off]:
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Old friend [comes back]: I just need a little reinforcement. Just chuckle with me one more time and then I'll be good to go.
Me [giggles]:
Old friend [giggles]: Thanks. See ya.
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.: posted by Vera
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Life
I just came across a bunch of old videos that were recorded with my webcam. Here is one of them: Aaron and I in our Fulton Street apartment.
The video is dated Saturday, May 25, 2002, 4:25pm, which means that we had lived in San Francisco all of five or so days.
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Free radicals
My counseling training started last weekend. I was in "class" all day (8:30am to 6pm) Saturday and all day Sunday. It was tiring at times, but for the most part very engaging. The training is experiential, meaning that there is not a lot of passive listening and sitting in lectures, but a lot of active doing and practicing and exercising.
The group of people I am working with is really awesome. When I looked around the room over the course of the weekend I noticed that there is not a single person that I'm not interested in getting to know better. I'm looking forward to a year of experiencing counseling with this group of people.
One of the things I really like about this training is how nontraditional and unforced it is. The homework and the reading list are OPTIONAL. We can eat and drink in class if we want to. We can sit in class or lie in class, and we can even SLEEP in class unless we are actively engaged in a counseling session with somebody else (duh). I just love the thought that I am allowed to SLEEP in class if I NEED to. I just love it.
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Yellow, green and orange pictures
Yesterday morning I finished unpacking and took a lot of pictures of my new place and its surroundings. I love it I love it I love it! Behold. I think I might be getting the hang of this manifesting thing.
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Moved
It has been a crazy four days. All day Saturday was spent preparing the apartment for its new paint job. All day Sunday was spent painting the walls yellow and orange and green. All day Monday was spent packing like a maniac, then watching the movers move my stuff. All day Tuesday was spent unpacking and settling in. By last night I felt pretty settled. Tonight I have a few more boxes to unpack. I also want to get a new dresser and a love seat in the near future, and after that I will feel *completely* moved in. But for now, I'm definitely moved in.
I have experienced quite a few ups and downs these past few days. As we were painting the walls yellow, I stopped at one point and said "That yellow is so BRIGHT! It will give me a headache!" But we kept painting, and it was all right. Then when we were painting the kitchen green, I started freaking out because "That green paint is going to get on the wood cabinets and ruin them!" But we just wiped off any drops with our special cloths and special spray, and it was all right. Then, since I'm on the ground floor and have a lot of windows, I whined "I feel so exposed!" So I went and bought a bunch of curtains, and it was all right. Then, since the rent is more than I have ever paid, I fretted "I'm not going to be able to pay the rent!" But then I reminded myself that for October the rent is already paid for and that at least for November I will be okay as well, and that I could always worry in December if I still needed to, but that I didn't need to worry NOW. And it was all right.
And now everything really does feel quite all right. I like my place a lot and can't wait to live in it.
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.: posted by Vera
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This is what happens when you follow your gut
During my lunch break today I picked up the keys to my new apartment, which shall be painted very very colorful tomorrow.
Keys in hand, I stopped by the apartment to really check it out for the first time. I had been nervous about this moment because I had only seen the apartment for about five minutes before, and there were a few things I was uncertain about. The lady showing the apartment the morning I first saw it seemed to be in a hurry, so I only had enough time to note that the apartment pretty much had everything I needed: two closets, a bath tub, some trees outside, a separate kitchen.
In the car after viewing the apartment, I had this really good feeling in my stomach. That feeling along with the vague thought that it had everything I needed prompted me to sign the lease the next day.
I did not see the apartment again until today. So for the last few weeks, although my gut feeling told me that the apartment was a fine choice, I was plagued by the following questions:
- Will I be able to fit all my furniture? Like, where will my desk go?
- Were there enough windows?
- Will the apartment get enough morning sunlight?
- How will I cope without extra storage space? Where will my hoop tubing go? My bike?
- How will I survive without a view after having lived in apartments with breathtaking views for the last three years?
- I saw a balcony - is that MY balcony? Why didn't I find out if this was MY balcony?
But I continued to be confident that I had made the right decision. I thought that I can always stuff my hoop tubing into one of the two closets, and that maybe I could park my bike on the balcony. I thought that the trees outside would be a nice substitute for a city view. I thought that if the main room had been tiny and not been able to fit my bed AND desk, clearly I would have noticed that.
On Monday in the Moon Cycle Manifestation class we set our intentions for this new moon. And my intention was that my new apartment was going to be a bright, colorful, happy, and spacious new place to live with enough room for all my stuff, and that this was the right move, both personally and professionally.
So today I saw the result of my manifestation. And there were some very nice surprises, so let's visit my questions again:
- Will I be able to fit all my furniture? Like, where will my desk go? --> The main room was indeed much bigger than I had remembered. I will definitely be able to fit all of my furniture.
- Were there enough windows? --> YES: The main room has THREE plus a sliding glass door out to the balcony.
- Will the apartment get enough morning sunlight? --> YES: There was a huge rectangle of sun on the floor, coming through one of the windows.
- How will I cope without extra storage space? Where will my hoop tubing go? My bike? --> Biggest surprise ever: Along with my front door and my mail keys, I also was given a third key, labeled "Dolores #5 Locker." That's right - I have an extra storage locker that I didn't even know about! And it's definitely big enough to fit my bike, my hoop tubing, my suitcases, and other random junk.
- How will I survive without a view after having lived in apartments with breathtaking views for the last three years? --> Big surprise #2: Not only do I have a view of trees and a garden from my bedroom, but when you step out onto the balcony, you can see some other stuff, like! A big church steeple. Like! The Bay Bridge. Like! Some downtown buildings. So I still do have a view, sort of.
- I saw a balcony - is that MY balcony? Why didn't I find out if this was MY balcony? --> YES, that is my balcony, and I don't know why I ever doubted that.
So in short, my new apartment rocks! My gut knew this the whole time, but my head tried to get in there with its silly doubts and freak me out. Thank god I listened to my gut!
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.: posted by Vera
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New Moon manifestation
Moon Cycle Manifestation started today, and I think it went very well. I wasn't too nervous and didn't stutter too much. For the most part it was just really fun, which is exactly what I had hoped for.
There were ten of us, including myself. Most of them are good friends of mine, but there were also some people that I had never met. I think it's a great group of people and can't wait for the full moon meeting in two weeks!
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